I love this song.

don’t get my personality and….

“don’t get my personality and my attitude twisted.
my personality is me.
my attitude depends on you.”

“Ex boyfriend”

last night my “ex boyfriend” called because we ran into each other at a store and he had been rude to me, so his dad told him to call and say sorry. i mean really he dumped me and i had told him never to call me again and then he fucking calls me to say sorry. i mean really, he has no right to do that!. and then he asks how i am and what’s new in my life when the whole time we were going out he never once asked how i was or what was new in my life. so when he called and asked how i was and what was new in my life i told him that it really wasn’t any of his business and then i hung up on him.

to tell the truth i am glad he dumped me, yeah it hurt when he said i wasn’t good enough because i didn’t want to sleep with him, but i don’t need a loser like that in my life.

message to my ex: i am so much happier now that we are not going out. don’t ever call me again because you broke up with me and when you did you last the right to ask about my life.

Today

Today I decided that I wanna learn how to open up to people without having to worrying about being hurt, forgotten or used. I don’t always want to feel sad, but no matter how much I tell myself to be happy I can’t. I just can’t do it.

I don’t know how to really have fun and to just be myself, I wanna just have fun and be myself and not care what other people think, but I can’t.

to tell you the truth I hate myself as a person, I don’t feel like I will ever be good enough for anyone or anything and I hate that I hate myself, I hate that I don’t feel like I am good enough. I wanna love myself and I try I really do, but it’s not easy for me. it’s not easy when I feel so alone I mean I know my family is there for me, but sometimes that’s just not enough

I wanna change all of that someday and when that day comes then I will be happy, love myself, be more than good enough, I’ll have fun and love being myself….

XOXO

songs

did you ever notice that there is always that particular line in that certain song that always stands out in a certain way and reminds you of memories that you haven’t thought about in a long time….

BE YOU

BElieve in
YOUrself

IF YOU….

if you wanna be a bitch, that’s cool. but only remember i will be one too. ONLY A HELL OF ALOT BETTER.

Being

being normal is boring, being different is so much more fun.

Maybe…

maybe it’s not about the happy ending maybe it’s about the story and everything that comes with it.

Everyday…

Let the rain was away all the pain of yesterday…

Everyday is a new beginning. Take a deep breath and start again.